The bigger picture

I've learned that whatever type of person I am
At the moment, or I will be in the future
There will always be someone
whom God will send to become a friend. (-,-)

ON sOliTuDe

Oftentimes, being alone
Is a blessing on its own
It might be the only way
To assess if you're okay

Know that you've known
The strengths that you own
Were just realized
When you were alone

Your moments at peace
Is his moments too
To make you feel proud
That you're still you

The air is still a friend
It whispered good news today
He said "Be sane my child"
Solitude is just my way

('')

God knows and sees
Your heart's content

SO

In spite of the inconsistencies
By them, the past and of moments ago

BE SANE

Just believe in what's right
And He will do the fight.

No room for u

It's no use to talk to someone who isn't open-minded.
Who is trapped on his own ideals, of his own world.
Damn, do I care? ... I will not. You've done too much.
When I know I'm right, I will not compromise.

I don't want wrinkles, hypertension, cardiac problems,
any stressors... and since you're one of them,
Keep off -- JUST keep OFF

Surmising Love

It seldom weakens the soul
For it's rare to occur
Futile at times
When man's being unwise

But, the grace is foretold
To stay until you're old
If you only see,
Behind the facade it unfolds

And so, it's rare
Who cares if it's rare?
As long as when it comes,
Though it seldom comes

You know that it's you
Who is true,
In spite of being torn
By him, who weakens you

just posted this recently in another site ...
don't know why I'm gettin'
poetic these days?,
must be due to time...the availability of it
not what you think it is...hahaha:)

To my 1 & only

Before, my eyes aren’t yours

Tried every denial that you exist

I just don’t want to be with you

When duty days are holding my feet

You’ve caused me blank stares

Spur of the moment laughs

The thought of you bothers

It made me so weak

Those sleepless nights

A pimple on my cheek

A headache that’s been awhile

And love for gray sheets

Yes I know, I must’ve been

Really hard for you

To make you feel scratch and torn

Colored your days with black and blue

We’ve shared days, warm and cold

Lit this yellow lamp

As late night unfolds,

I just can’t bring you down now

Soon I’ll be away

But these lines would,

Definitely reoccur

The points you raised

The values you’ve thought

Though it’s a matter of distance

I know in time, we’ll see

If the moments we’ve shared

Were enough to make me…

A US-RN…

Can’t help but be with you,

Saunders (my book)…malapit na kasi exams. grrr….

In blue

My thoughts wander
Back in time,
In a seat nearby
Was a friend of mine

I used to say,
"This one is rare"
Suffices well
For a pristine wish

Learning that not all good
Can be granted on time
I took a further wait,
And a grip in faith

So, years have passed
Yet the moment was fresh,
At the 5th floor, a pen twirls
And him with that smile

No better Saturdays
For those were the days
I could only trust my intuition
Yet, remain content

This time it can't be
And I won't allow it to be
For I am too familiar
With that certain shade

Perhaps in time
I'd run out of good rhyme
I'll forget that guy in blue,
Who, writes too.

check again

Amazing,
things seem so amazing everyday.
Thanks for granting the things on my wish list.

Mere moments

Just composed this awhile ago, a by-product of boredom + solitude =

Moments are moments
At times it's best to weep,
To acknowledge there's somethin' wrong
To know where u really belong

At times it's best to be quiet
To listen and be fair
That it's not just we who talk
Others may need to share

At times it's best to be complacent
Forget to compete and relax
Live like it's in constant abundance
And be content w/ his graceful guidance

But we could not always gamble
There are things not worth the risks
That even moments must be right
That those seconds, we must fight

Life they say is fleeting
So I hope I'd see more
More to life than what I've envisioned
More than vision has ignored.

What?

Hmm...just confused whether I'd have driving or swimming lessons this week. I think it's both beneficial for me. Swimming coz I usually don't go to the beach for I'm afraid that I might drown, but hey! I have a lot of friends who love the beach, and I don't wanna be left behind the next time invitations will be in a row. Driving, even though I don't own a car but my parents do, so if ever there would be emergencies at home I will not be able to give the excuse of not knowing how to drive. whew, the pressures of being the eldest...

Anyway, I'm quite grateful for this time being, for I'm able to enjoy other activities other than nursing stuffs: sports, trips, and blogging:) As one of my chat mates suggested, whose also a nurse in UK, that I must not be overly indulged with nursing, or else I'll get burned-out.
That's why I'm thinking about forming a new hobby aside from writing, music and etc. They say it takes 21 days to form a hobby. So since today is 12, so if I'd start tomorrow, perhaps I'd be able to form a hobby this 3rd of July. Hahaha I guess it'll take some time.
You have to LOVE what you're doing before you can actually say that it's a hobby. As Mariah's song goes "Love takes time," so perhaps it will take me some more time. hahaha before I'm loosing association here, what could it be? hmmm....

My firsts

whew, whatta a great week!:) I've told myself weeks ago that I would stop blogging, since blah blah blah...I'll get busy of those stuffs. hahaha whatta shame, here I am again writing something about whatever things.... Honestly, I don't know what to write, but I'm filled with stories to tell. Well, how 'bout the title eh? The firsts? I had a lot this week.

First week for my IELTS review class, of which my mentor told me that- "hey! you may take the exams if you want to". hahaha I got a band score of 7 out of 9, it's more than the expected BS for Cali applicants. whew, haha I never thought I could regain my self-esteem after reading Saunders, of which I was bombarded with med terms. Yup, med terms here and there, plus nursing procedures, plus viewing unfamiliar pieces of hospital equipments...whew. Anyway though, I enjoyed the searchin'-and- learnin' experience. Well, I'm not gonna take my exams earlier, gonna stick to that july sked. I bet I have more things to learn, and what my teacher told me was just a mere ego booster. Haha well, aside from that, he was really then a good coach.

What else? after finishing my 3-day lecture, afternoon, I went to PRC and waaah! I got my license:) It was part of my wishlist for the week and I'm so happy that finally it came with a nice blue jacket (swak na swak, want one? for sale dun sa PRC). Bonus na rin pala ang CAP, I got an unclaimed cheque issued way back summer of 2005. It wasn't really that big compared to the amount they should have paid during my school days. well, anyway somehow...hmph, somehow the act of receiving a cheque from them made my eyes glimmer.

It's also Lolo's 81st birthday yesterday! hahaha and it was the first time he went bowling, imagine that? after 81 years of subtle existence? hahaha it was also my first, after 21 years of royalty(hmph well, my blog hehe). Grandma couldn't come with us since it''ll be a great hindrance for her rosary routine, yup, even for just a night with her hubby's b-day:(
Well, it's really somethin' about her faith...I couldn't do more about it. Moreover, everyone went out and was happy, Lola was left alone in their house(tsk...tsk...). It was really a beautiful experience. I thought I was the only one who'll benefit from the supposedly swimming experience, which turned out into bowling, since the pool that we're supposed to go was reserved for a debut (eeeww debuts?!). Well, it was really the first time I saw my tacit Lolo spoke much, and laugh a lot.

It's amazing how life tends to bring us twists, then we find out that it gave us a better option, far better than what we really intend to do (hmmm, juz a thought).

Now, I gotta pay for it. It's the last day of the week and did not go to church, instead I went walking the whole day. Grrr...I think I overused my muscles. Anyway, the end justifies the means, burned a great amount of calories and got more coconuts on the fridge plus a new househelp straight from the farm. Well, some of those coconuts are for Lola, hope those were enough to undo the... I mean to celebrate their 46th anniv. today. Yup, it's their 46th years of gettin' hitched. That means lola got married when she was only... hahaha 21? my age today, and I never even had my first bf. lol